Unbecoming. To become.

There is nothing wrong with just living. You have to live while you are alive. And as far as we know, that is way better than being dead. And so we must opt for being alive, for a long time before we are dead.

You have to allow yourself to feel every type of emotion, and to be angry, and to be sad, and to be in love and to be hurt. And thats where freedom resides I think.

And that gets you to arrive at new settlements, which keep you going for a time, but then you can arrive at another point to refine and requestion those emotions, and the beliefs that got you there.

And when you get to that place of comfort, stay there for as long as you can, and for as long as you are happy. When it stops making sense, review, revise and pivot to your next. And renew and refurnish yourself. Make your head pretty again, and gain more clarity.

I think we have a life path. And we have freedom to exercise choices, some choices get us into the thorny bushes, some choices lead us to the rose garden. I believe this is what is meant by free will.

And I think we are born with a balance of judgement. As an infant you inherently know that you have to suckle from your mother’s breast to feed and to grow. You dont have to teach a baby that survival skill.

And hopefully, that balance of judgement grows, and later in your life you make choices from what you then know to be right and not wrong. And those choices take you into a particular path, which is designed by the balance of forces of good and bad.

You can call Him by many names, Elohim, El-Shaddai, Yahweh, Jehovah, Adonai, Mwari, uNkulunkulu, Mwali, uMvelinqangi, but He resides on one side of the balance of forces.

And if it is that He is our imagination, then His construction, throughout time, is that He is the force of good, who is stuck in an eternal battle with the force of bad/evil. The force of bad/evil is the one who designs the paths that take you onward onto the cliff or into the snare of the hungry lions, and into the deep pits of burning sulphur.

But we are born with these forces already fighting it out 😂

Both of these forces are within us. And we exercise them everyday, in our choices. I dont think they are up in the sky or in the hereafter. They are right now, I think.

And thats why I think heaven or hell are not in the afterlife, they are in the present.

What I can encourage is that you work yourself through this balance, and exercise your consciousness. You have every right to question organised religion, and faith. You have to do that to find your centre, and thats also a part of free will, if the doctrine is to be believed.

Because if there will be a judgement, upon death, and in the hereafter, I dont believe that a benevolent Creator will not assess performance on the basis of the achievement of more good than bad.

But make sense of all of it yourself, and you must arrive at the truth that makes and means sense to you.

And for me, the journey I have travelled is from all that has been taught and told to me. But I am yet to arrive at the absolute truth, but noone will give you that. It becomes an exercise of faith. Hence my emphasis on that its all within.

The force is within you, and it is with you.