Promises / And our feelings.
My dreams had stopped for a while since I arrived back in the North, from down deep in the interior of the South.
Im supposing that my people didnt travel with me on the aeroplane and they may have chosen to walk back up North rather than take indiza because such machinery they were never in knowledge and familiarity of lol.
Anyway, the dreams returned last night and so a new peace arrived along this morning and I do feel some of the anxieties that I was starting to have, starting to depart.
And I am heaving a sigh of relief.
When push comes to shove, you must always return yourself to the basics. And thats why my recent travels to the South were so important for my well-being. I had to remember my people and to collect them, for amplifying future memory.
It was hurricane work and I had to meet with a lot of people and exchange ideas and energy in a short period of time at break-neck speed. But I slept good. Snoring loudly apparently.
I was cultivating relationships and also letting go of other relationships that were too energy extractive and also unconstructive.
It is unfortunate that some people were hurt that we didnt get to meet. For that, I hope there will be a next time and we get to fix that which is broken.
But it was, for me, a state visit of sorts and I needed to sort out a lot of things that were bugging me on the inside and within.
I have a thing for keeping promises, and being bonded to my words. And I expect reciprocation when I give out my thoughts and feelings and ideas and actions.
Sometimes it hurts being an INTF (Introverted, iNtuitive, Thinking, and Feeling) person who suddenly finds themself as a ENFJ (Extraverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging). And sometimes I find myself all over the place in all of the matrix of the Myers Briggs indicators.
And so I make commitments to actions and I promise only that which I know I will deliver. And I expect my counterparties to be just the same way inclined. So I get disappointed in myself when I cannot make it happen by words and deeds and actions.
But so I feel, and I feel strongly that we must do right by and for each other. And I pray for the enforcement of all that we have to achieve and accomplish, with God and our guides by our side and within us, thats the only way we can make it happen, for each other and all that we promise to each other without disdain, but with deliberation.
And so I find myself counselling myself and others, bigging up my brothers and cultivating a new brotherhood and sisterhood and neighbourhood all at once in all the meetings and in the conversations.
And sometimes I fail, and we fail. But we wake up the next day and try again. And we pray stronger for the next try and trial so that the errors and mistakes leave and exit.
We have to work harder in our promises fam. We owe it to ourselves and the future generations for us to be better at this elevation thing bruv.
Otherwise, what are we even doing here?